I had my bloodtest on Friday and got a call from a clinic Nurse with the results. "Have you had a bleed yet? No? Well your test came back negative. Nothing. Not even a hint that anything happened at all." Thank goodness I wasn't holding on to any hope. Way to crush someone that was though.
Although I felt that this cycle was hopeless from the beginning I still can't help but feel guilty that I didn't give this cycle my all. Yes I did acupuncture pre and post transfer but I really did abuse my body in other ways. I posted earlier how I lost my beloved laptop and large assignments that were contained in it. That week I had x3 3,ooo word assignments due and starting again with all the research and typing I pulled quite a few all nighters. My poor body didn't sleep for days and my diet was also lacking due to time constraints. How could a pregnancy survive through that?
To top it all off my period arrived today - Mothers Day - and that's all I have to say about that.
I will start stimming again on CD3 and thaw my last 2 embies. These embies are Grade 3's and the only other Grade 3 I've thawed did absolutely nothing over night. Rather than risk having nothing to transfer we are treating this cycle as an OI cycle and going hell for leather. David is very excited and likes the idea of that. When is the last time we had lots and lots of sex in the vain hope of procreation?
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In more news, my new FS of choice isn't taking any new patients for the rest of the year so I freaked out a little over that. I have made an appointment for a different new FS for the 1st July. By then I will be frostie free. Before cycling with her I will be requesting recurrent implantation failure testing - immunology, karyotyping, etc. I think that's reasonable after nothing with 11 embies.
I was originally excited having 10 frosties but transferring 1 or 2 embies at a time has taken me a year which is such a waste of time and money when it isn't the right batch. I will without a doubt be growing the next batch to blast to weed out and see what they do between days 3-5. I have realised that less is more in my case.
I do have my reservations about my new FS though. Out of all the FS at my clinic she has the least amount of experience and does quite a bit of "fill in" work for other FS's. Through this she has gained a bit of a reputation for being a little rough at transfers and u/s's and for being a little abrupt and insensitive when delivering bad news to those who are not her patients. Her patients seem to love her though.
She did my first transfer which is the only one which has resulted in a BFP. I have to give her points for that although she was very rough. 5 transfers with 5 different FS's later and I didn't feel a thing. It was however a fresh transfer she did 2 days past EPU so perhaps it was due to the tenderness etc. from that?
Anyway, I guess I'll just see what type of feeling I get off her at my first appointment in July. In the meantime I will keep you updated about the last FET/OI cycle here as I can not for the life of me figure out how to use Wordpress!!!